February 2012
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Can't Deal
Can’t deal with being drunk. too many emotions and too many things that want to come out of my mouth that shouldn’t… Love me? Or as one of my favorite tumbrs, Nicole, likes to put it as too many “feels.”
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Listen to me, Right fucking now.
You there. For all those who are lonely right now, for all those who don’t feel they are good enough, those who don’t feel loved. Well feel loved, feel fulfilled. I Love you all right now. I may be a little drunk, which is very very rare for me, especially on a work night, but honestly, you people are fucking amazing. (excuse my french) but jesus, I come on here and I don’t...
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Friends.
I have found, living where I am now, that I do not have the type of friends around here that I want. Two friends from home and two friends I made through one of them came out to Rhode Island to visit me this weekend. When I am with them, it is what friendship is supposed to be. I can be myself. I can laugh with my whole body. They get my weirdness (most of the time) and I get them. We’re all...
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I just heard Cthulu in my stomach.
I can thank my co-worker for introducing me to this sound. Now I am paranoid and think Cthulu is in my stomach since it just made that same noise.
The Bloop
CNN’s Explanation
Apparently the “Bloop” is only about 900 miles from where Lovecraft says R’lyeh is.
I hate to tell them that they are wrong, but R’lyeh is now my stomach and Cthulu is there. It has been...
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A commencement speech to Goddard College Graduates →
The man who gave the commencement speech is my friends brother-in-law. I’ve only had the chance to talk with him a few times, but every time I talk to him I seem to gain a lot more respect for him than I did the time before.
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Okc
I always like it when women put in that they want a message that means something, that shows we read their profile and not just looked at some picture they have up.
Then I get a few messages that have no thought in them at all and I am assuming they expect me to answer back with something more meaningful.
Granted I am most definitely sure I do not get awkward, gross, messages thrown at me...
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The Ex
Do you ever talk to an ex, (an ex that should probably hate you for all eternity because you were the dumper, not the dumpee, and you did it in a horribly cowardly way that you will forever kill yourself about) and wonder, what the fuck is wrong with you for letting this one go? To let it end how it did. How fucking immature you were at that time and looking back you know you could have been happy...
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Sleep/
I wish there was some way to create a power switch for my brain. It needs to be in the off position right now because I really don’t want to be thinking about work while I toss and turn.
Need a clapper for the brain. Just clap it off. Morning comes and then just clap it back on. Until then my brain can be mush for all I care.
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Student Loans
Why are you so annoyingly hard to figure out and how am I supposed to pay you back?!??
Paying roughly 50% of my paycheck a month is getting to be a bit annoying…
I’m glad when I started college, in 2004, everyone was saying TAKE OUT STUDENT LOANS AND GET OUR EDUMACATION. THEN WHEN YOU GET OUT IT WILL BE SLICE OF CAKE TO PAY BACKS. OH YOU CANT TAKE OUT MORE FEDERAL LOANS?? WELL LOAD...
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Delay in posts
Mind has been sort of bogged down. Maybe with life. I’m not really sure because I don’t really have anything that would constitute difficulty. I think I’m just tired and in need of a hug and conversation. Not the kind of hug a family member or just a friend can provide, but that hug that lasts a good amount of time because you connect with that person on another level....
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I hate OKC.
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weak.meat.strong.eat.: The Shell of a Man →
deistbrawler:
He used to be different. He used to go to work. He used to hang out with friends. He used to explore new things. He was the kind of person that enjoyed going hiking. Who was not opposed to a camping trip or a day out shooting. He dreamed of traveling. Of meeting new people. Of…
Definitely close to home. I feel like I am becoming that shut in… must escape it.
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Feeling fit
This is using the British “fit.” Rather than the way we usually use it to represent athleticism. I bought some jeans that actually fit me the right way, the cuff falls at the exact place they are supposed to on the boots I bought, and the sweater I also bought today makes me look quite dashing. Feeling good, made some pasta with meatballs and sausage. Watching some Merlin. Also,...
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Goals...
What are everyone’s goals in life? Now I’ve been alive just over 25 years now, the only goal I had in life for myself was to become an architect. All through middle and high school, that is what I wanted, that is what I strove to achieve. I got to college… One 1/2 semesters in I dropped out and switched my major to history. Granted I love history, but it was never my passion. In...
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January 2012
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Random coughing fit...
Pretty sure I just ripped open the inside of my throat somehow by coughing so hard. I feel like my eyes are going to fall out.
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Story Time Saturday
Saturday Story (photo from Andrea) This is my first one.
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We were just leaving the lake house, I was ready to leave it, but I wasn’t ready to go home. The lake house had always been a place of mixed emotions for me and this year was no different. My parents began to fight earlier this year. It carried on through the summer, to include the time we spent at the lake house. I never...
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Going to tomorrow...
try out this saturday story time. Way too tired tonight.
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Untitled
Hard to miss, the one you love
who left after push and shove.
Days will pass, you will see
how truly lonely the world can be.
They won’t last, those hard days
where none live to sing your praise.
Lovely girls, down the street
will have you dancing and on your feet.
Happens fast, finding your love
who must have been sent from up above.
Love will last, you will find
when you also...
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Guest Directed
I really enjoy doing this.
Not only because it gets me to take pictures, but it also makes it a time of reflection. It will be interesting to see how everyone’s pictures change from the first to the “last.” I believe that our current mindset affects these pictures that we’re taking. So when I look at these self portraits in a year from now (I really think it will keep...
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“Before you diagnose yourself with depression or low self esteem, first make sure...”
– William Gibson (via nikkotine)
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Making dinner.
Not making dinner for her no more.
And by her I mean by roommate / friend’s fiance.
This is about the 3rd time I have made dinner where she takes three bites and doesn’t eat anymore. Bitch can go fuck herself.
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My cousin's cousin is my cousin too
He asked me for job advice. I wrote him a page long piece on what he should do now and how he should go about doing it.
I thought it was interesting that he asked for my advice. My 1st cousins on any side of my family have never asked my advice in anything. It makes me feel good, that someone asked for advice, because I have always felt like my sister and I were the black sheep of the family....
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President?
I just became the president of our employee association in my office… Hmmm
Mistake? Probably.
But for now:
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WHY WINK?
Just click the button to send an email and say HAIIIIIIII!! I’m not going to respond to a wink. There is no point to them besides you being too lazy to just say hi.
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All I think I really want
is for someone to make muffins for.
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Cooking
makes me happy.
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Off to work
Its raining. I feel like someone lifted my scalp off my head and poured annoyance, unhappiness, and anger inside my brain. I would give anything to just go back to sleep. But that just isn’t going to happen.
Wish me luck.
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Just one day after another
I think some people just inherently know how to make their lives exciting. How to make a dull day into something fantastical, something vibrant. I’ve come to realize that I am not one of those people. I lean towards the indecisive, towards the excuse that I just did not know what to do with myself. Thousands of ideas cross my mind daily, yet nothing is done. I have nothing to show for it....